Sunday, 8 January 2012

Day 5 - Raw & Alive

Breakfast:
  • apple, blueberry, carrot, beet, parsley, celery & leek (took 2 sips that came right back up)
  • coconut water (2 glasses)
Snack:
  • Apple

Lunch:
  • Carrot sticks & humus
Dinner:
  • curried quinoa
  • vegetable lentil soup
Snack:
  •   Pau D'Arco tea
  • almonds

Note:
  • Here's my story about our morning Juice:
Me:  "What's in this one hun?"
Him: "apple, blueberry, carrot, beet, parsley, celery & leek"
(gives me the glass - cheers!  We both drink.  hm... wow that leek really is strong at the end...  He looks at me.  I look at him.  We both take another sip and he pours some for our daughter.  "huh."  Not sure she will be a very happy camper if she has this one.  That leek leaves a strong aftertaste...  She hesitates.  He looks at me.  I look at him.)
Me:  "I don't think she'll be too happy...  I don't feel too good... not because of your juice..." (didn't want to be ungrateful for his juice)
Him: "I think I'm going to throw up!" (he runs past me to the main floor bathroom) and I run behind him for the bathroom upstairs.

  • lesson - do not juice an entire leek.  I've never had a reaction to anything that fast before.  It was harsh!  & hilarious.  Kinda gross, but jeez...  Maybe a slice of leek, the inside of the leek too, I read.  Not an entire leek.
  • Apples and almonds.  I'm bored of them.  Still like 'em, but I'm bored.  Need more options to eat things.  Variety.  Need more variety.

Saturday, 7 January 2012

Day 4 - Raw & Alive

Breakfast:
  • Juice - 
Snack:
  • Apple
  • Almonds
Lunch:
  • seaweed (ordered a seaweed udon. ok, I ate about 4 udon noodles too...)
  • Veggie wrap (in rice paper)
Snack:

  • Cheezies & Chips
  • veggies
Dinner:
  • small piece of lasagna
  • Garlic bread
  • 1 slice of sushi maki
  • edamame

Snack:
  • small cinnamon bun
  • port

Note:
  • So I think I mentioned in the beginning of this that I had a family event tonight.  Yup, I was not on the program tonight, but dind't really feel guilty about it.  Why?  I don't want this 'upgrade' in my eating style to be 15 days.  I want it to be a lifestyle.  So, I ate in moderation, enjoyed it, now on with the program.  
  • It was nice because as myself and my hubby just chatted about, he and I really overeat.  I am really getting in touch with eating in moderation i.e. instead of eating a bowl full of chips, I had 6.  I ate probably 25% the size of lasagna I'd usually have had, but at the end of the meal, I felt really good.
  • I did notice, that my mouth was more gummy!  Seriously, the plaque build up on my teeth was considerably more.  It irritated me during the evening.  

Friday, 6 January 2012

Day 3 - Raw & Alive

Breakfast:
  • Juice (kale, apple, pear, celery
  • apple
Snack:
  • almonds
  • Pear
Lunch:
  • carrots & humus
Dinner:
  • Went to Organic Connections in White Rock (Specializes in raw, organic food!)
  • Green Juice Blend: Cucumber, kale, celeri, apple, pear, lemon and ginger
  • Thai Wrap: Cucumbers, carrot, red pepper, avocado, alfalfa sprouts, seasoned seeds with a spicy almond Thai sauce wrapped in a seasonal green or rice paper.
 Snack:
  • Popcorn with butter!


Notes:
  • LUUUUV Organic Connections!  So inspiring and nice to see what you can do with whole, raw foods.  They are even hosting a 30 day Raw Food program and a workshop for Raw Food On The Run & Raw Food Basics in January!  and the ambiance there is so mellow and lovely - you can actually have a conversation there - wow!
  • My insides feel relief.  I seriously feel like I am in-line with my body.  It feels happy, content, vibrant (aside from a bit of a cold).  I just feel more efficient!  Really enjoying this. 
  • Very thankful for my husband as he does so much of the preparing of juice etc.  What a dude!

Wednesday, 4 January 2012

Day 2 - Raw & Alive

Breakfast:
  • juice - apple, pear, carrot, kale, celery
Snack:
  • Carrot Sticks & Humus
Lunch:
  • Vegetable lentil soup
  • green salad with avocado, lemon & garlic dressing
  • Water
Snack:
  • Pear
  • then an hour later: Almonds & Apple
  • Vanilla honeybush tea with a bit of manuka honey (my throat was scratchy)
Dinner:
  • vegetable lentil soup
  • green salad (yes, both soup and salad are THAT good that I would eat it lunch and dinner!)
Snack:
  • Ok, here is my "moderation".  I didn't even ask, I swear.  My husband has given me a glass of wine.  It was a long day... and I don't feel an ounce of guilt over it!  Summerhill Ehrenfelser - yum "grapes"
Notes:
  • My abdominal/digestive area feels really good!  It feels good in the sense that it is not bloated... that doesn't even do it justice.  I just feel tighter, trim, not carrying food that is slugging through me.
  • My digestive system feels very efficient.  I won't say more than that.  Read between the lines.
  • Strangely enough my saliva feels not as mucky.  I'm not even drinking more.  It just feels better.
  • I have a headache tonight. Not sure if it is a cold onset?
  • Other than the headache, I feel really, really good!  

Day 1 - Raw & Alive

Breakfast: 
  • salad (greens, mixed sprouts, carrots, corn, tomato, onion)
  • juice - celery, kale, apple, carrot, broccoli
Snack:
  • juice - carrot, apple
Lunch:
  • Greek Salad (2 wedges of pita & some tzadziki <--moderation, see?)
  • Green tea
Dinner:
  • Vegetable Lentil Soup (Hubby made it - awesome)
Snack:
  • Pau D'Arco tea
  • almonds
 Notes:
  • My body feels relieved.  Relieved that it is not going to face that "FULL" feeling.  I dislike that feeling of being "full" - tummy bursting, "Why did I eat that much?"
  • When I did eat a good amount of the vegetable lentil soup, a part of me felt like I was still hungry, but it was moreso that I just wasn't full.  I think when I am HUNGRY, my body says "get that FULL feeling".  But I wasn't.  it wasn't even the amount that made a difference, it felt like it was more so what I ate, that it wasn't all filler.  
  • There is a feeling of energy when you eat 'clean', alive foods.
  • Juicing - FEELS AWESOME!  My 3 year old daughter says her body goes "BING!" when she drinks it.  Mine does too!  I almost can't describe it, but it is better than any caffeine kick or sugar rush you could get (in the case that you think you can't do without coffee, or that can of pop).  It feels innately right, like it just clicks in to every cell and rejuvenates it.  LOVE IT!
  • Having food prepared is so key for me.  Especially for how skiddish I get when I get hungry, I need to grab something that is in the zone.  Case in point: the Greek salad with pita - we took my daughter out for a celebration and the place lacked great choices and I was HUNGRY.  I panicked.  Hubby just shook his head and agreed how not good at 'cleanses' I am.  "No, I'm not, which is why I'm not doing a cleanse."  His salad and vegetable lentil soup were so amazing, his meal prep makes it so much easier...
  • I WANT to work out.  I want to kick some butt!  I attribute this to my veggie friends.  "Thank you for your energy little guys!"
  • This is waaay better than the miso-soup deal-io I did years back... way better.  Too much fermented soy, rice & barley = not nice tummy etc.

Alive & Raw

Happy New Year everyone!

How are your tummies and bodies?  It's been a while since writing, but I'm back!

Every year, this happens: Christmas holidays come, visiting, extra treats, on the road even more, and then BAM! the New Year comes and my body aches for reprieve, "Just STOP, for the love of all things, just stop!".  And this year, I didn't even go super-crazy - just the two days of Turkey dinner madness at my parents' place and the extra snacks (potato chips at night for a few nights we were there).  Still.  I feel incredibly saturated.  I feel plugged, heavy, pudge from the inside, less energy, dreary, plugging along.  That's what I feel.

During the holidays, I checked back on a documentary I've been meaning to see for a while, but didn't find available in Canada until this time around.  "Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead" by Joe Cross.  Very intriguing documentary.  Not in the sense that I think juicing is revolutionary or the best thing for everyone, but moreso for the emphasis he places on the misconception of the North American diet.  Amidst his quest for overcoming illness and being overweight, Australian Joe Cross goes to the U.S. to juice fast for sixty days.  Through the documentary, he interviews Dr. Joel Fuhrman, author of the New York Times Best Selling book "Eat To Live" and subsequent book "Super Immunity".  He interviews others on their eating habits, their health issues.

My opinion?  Any human being is going to lose weight on a juice fast and I do not think it is a healthy way to lose/maintain weight.  But what stood out to me is the epidemic of mediocre wellness, the plight for doctors to fix us, for medications to make us feel better, thinking it is just normal, but continually inputting such over-processed crap in to our bodies, taking away the needed space our bodies have for things that are alive, natural and meant to nourish us since the beginning of time.  How do you argue with 200,000 years (give or take) of human evolution on this planet?  It reminds me of an example on unethical marketing done in the 1970's-1980's and beyond in third world countries, to tell mothers formula was healthier than breastmilk. 

Both the documentary and book made me look in the mirror and realize I've been wearing an incredibly distorted (and common) pair of glasses - seeing my own diet and nutrition through a perspective that doesn't really match my intuition at this point in my life.

I grew up eating mostly what I want.  But I do recall being quite young, thinking "I wish I could just eat vegetables and fruit".  That wouldn't happen though - our family was somewhat typical in our 1980's North American eating habits.  My mom made most of our meals homemade and some were Japanese dishes which were quite healthy.  But we also had "The Chef" (Boyardee) feeding us, some instant Japanese noodles, the golden arches on weekends, and when I was in highschool, and could afford my own lunches, man were my choices poor! 

Cut to: me all grown up.  I'm 37.  I thought my little family was pretty healthy.  At the grocery store, aside from a loaf of bread, everything else are ingredients - rarely a pre-packaged meal.  I make our pasta sauce with organic, free-range beef, homegrown tomatoes, and kale.  But we are on the road a lot.  Anywhere we drive, is on average thirty minutes away which means, after we eat breakfast, get ready for the day, we are on the road, doing our errands, then lunch time.  Go back home thirty minutes there and back, or grab a bite?  Common sense is to grab a bite for me and my daughter and so we go to our usual places, Cactus Club, sushi, the occasional pasta. 

"Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead" had me assess the components of my diet.  There are some really healthy things amidst what we eat, but not a lot of it purely.  Pasta, the white rice at sushi, the bag of chips snack, a very sweek granola bar, sauces, dips, etc. 

Over the past six months, I have looked at the health of myself and those around me that I love.  My views on medicine have shifted (whether it be Western medicine, Traditional Chinese Medicine, naturopathic etc.).  I believe that medicine and each branch has huge merit, but I also believe that our wellness is compromised by a blind faith our society seems to have in it - "if something goes wrong, take a pill, a tincture, it must be in your head, etc".

My realization is:  I am plugging in so many 'fillers' in to my body that I have dug myself in to ignorance about the nutrition my body needs and deserves to be well.  A vegetable is not a side dish that I forgot to have in some meals.  It should be the majority of what I eat.

I was going to do the 15-Day Reboot Your Life program that the "Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead" folks put up on their www.rebootyourlife.com website.  I am having issue (not able to access the pages) with the 15-day RYL website and the program is not entirely what I want (do not want to do 5 days of just juicing), so I am having to modify as the days go on.  My husband is doing a modified program of the Wild Rose Cleanse (with no pills) and the RYL program.

I am not really a 'cleanse' type person, and I think for everyone's sake (I am mean when I am deprived of food), I will keep "moderation" of daily life guilt-free - if events come up, I'm not going to deny whatever is there.  But for the next couple of weeks, I am loading up on tons of veggies, and fruit, mostly raw and this will be the majority of my intake.   I am juicing as well.

Yup, I'm posting.  Each day will be an account of what is going in and any notes of the process.  Will it make a difference?...  Guess we'll see...

Friday, 18 November 2011

Months

The past few months have been interesting.  "Interesting".  It's been a mixture of feeling somewhat bound.  Life is fine, but just a feeling of helplessness to people I love dearly that are struggling.  It is somewhat easier when you 'get life': A + B = C. But things aren't always that clear, especially in the moment, is it?

This fall has affirmed a lot of life lessons:
  • When challenges happen, it shakes things up.  Other issues come to the surface bubbling all around the challenge.  It makes us reconsider things, change our paths if we so choose.  Back to the post about Trauma & Growth, hopefully we grow.  
  • Family and good friends are an undeniable force.  When shit hits the fan, if family pulls together, nobody feels so alone.  My family is amazing and I am so thankful to learn life lessons amongst the people who I love most in this world.  I love you dearly.
  • Sometimes life takes away things/people we are used to going to, so that we learn to either suck it up and go, or perhaps strengthen, or make new relationships that otherwise may not have grown.
  • Your own life is your own life and that's it. We live by our choices, yet all walk together.  Amazing how life binds these two contrasts in such a way.  Very yin/yang...
  • It is fundamental to have people around that you can count on.  That takes building with mindfulness and love.
  • We are not meant to do it all alone.
I watched one of the best documentaries I've seen the other day with my mom.  "I Am" by Tom Shadyac  THAT is what life is about.  I'm not going to tell you what it is about.  Go see it for yourself.   Best.  Ever.

I will say, we aren't meant to go through life feeling alone.  Doing so drains the spirit.

I am in awe of my daughter.  She is three and out and about, she chooses people and just has an urge to go and say "hi", to tell a girl who looked a bit sad at the sinks in the washroom that she is beautiful.  She just goes through her days 'lighting people'.  I am so deeply proud of her.  She gives to people's spirits and teaches me everyday.

You have to count on those in your inner circle.  They hopefully can count on you.  But all of that is earned and doesn't come easy.  In life, I'm not sure there is anything more important than that as the foundation of who we all are.  You have that and no matter what, you are fortunate.



Go light someone up and tell those in your circle you love them.

Sunday, 30 October 2011

Thought

Do you ever get that feeling, that something extraordinary must be done?

Friday, 14 October 2011

The Other Story

A couple of points to make:
  1. I am now a Pinterest.com addict
  2. I am sitting here eating a plate of hashbrowns at 11:41pm wondering where my body is going to put it (ugh, but YUM!)
So what then comes to mind from the above, is a quote  that I came across on Pinterest*:

I don't believe things are THAT simple.  Life happens.  Environmental factors are in place.  Life is not that simple.  BUT...

        what
                          if 
                                         it 
                                                      was?

If every act you chose to do (consciously or subconsciously) was a direct input to what the output was, what would your body show?  What you put in (and on) to your body, what you tell your body, how you direct its' resources, how you repeatedly deal with stress - how would all of these things translate if genetics and environmental factors out of our hands did not matter?  What would you be creating?  Are you helping your own creation and maintenance or are you just plugging the metre with what you were conditioned with, or feel is 'good enough'?

A step further.   If I were to take every increment of energy I expel, and those outputs directly illustrated ME (who I am), what would my world be?  What/how much energy do I give my daughter?  What words do I use with her?  What does my husband get from me?  What do I input in to our relationship?    What do I offer to work?  What feelings, intentions and energy do I invest in these things?  What would my life be if all that I invested were the only factors in creating myself? 

The past six months have been a challenge.  Alongside some really amazing times, and grounding moments that I am thankful for,  I also feel, in a sense that I am spinning my wheels - waiting for certain things to come to completion, for life to be different, wishing I could do more, feeling helpless or far away from those I hold most dear, missing them etc.  Our society lives so much outside of the present moment, that what we expend our energy on, is completely inappropriate for what we are truly aiming to create in our lives.  We work our tails off so that 'one day', we will have enough money to retire.  We throw all of our energy in to work, so our family will thrive.  We stress about things of the past, or what is to come, so that one day we might have peace.  We are hard on our loved ones, because we need help or do not feel heard.

I am not saying that where each of us is in life, is because of what we have done and that alone.  Life ain't that simple.  However, there is a simplicity that we must be accountable for: where we put our energy is what will grow (with the footnote that we are not in control of everything, and can not change everything).  Sometimes life sucks.  We can't possibly choose everything with full knowledge (unless all info is fully disclosed and available - in that case, we are responsible).  We can not change our surroundings on many levels.  So no, not all things are a result of our own actions.  However, we have more control than we realize and that scares us.  In reality, it should empower us, but when we are so used to being told what to buy, what to take and when, how to raise our children, what we should have, what should not have happened etc., having the reigns firmly and solely in our hands can be daunting.  But, you know what?  Now is the time. 

For 24 hours, put your energy/decisions purposefully towards those things in your life and see how parallel what you put out, is what you create.

*I hate to show a photo without crediting the creator, but as far as I can tell, it came from here

Wednesday, 5 October 2011

Life Systems

Throughout this blog, I have pulled out a number of analogies in day-to-day life ('managing one's garden'/social circles/Social Accountability,  being 'Plugged In', 'Poop=Fertilizer', water Overflowing, 'Trauma and Growth'/pain before or accompanying growth, Intuition versus Anxiety).  When I write, these circumstances are things that just stick out in my mind, that influence and inspire me.  It is for a reason.

I believe that Life, is an incredibly complex whole, which, under most circumstances, continues with underlying common theories.  What it takes to live is common in some fundamental ways.
  • Life is begins
  • there is an innate nature to that life
  • It is played upon by the environment around it
  • the inherent nature of the life seeks to fulfill itself, to be expressed
  • the life, struggles to bring its innate nature to fruition while maintaining what balance it can to survive
  • if it succeeds or is consistent in bringing it's inherent nature forward, the environment (including life forms around it) around it become enriched
  • if it fails, for whatever reason, it causes a draw upon, or unhealthy balance to the environment around it
  • There is a complex, yet progressive interaction between all life forms, but rarely do they stand alone
  •  When a life ends, it either continues on another generation and/or continues itself in some type of legacy- the energy is taken forward to continue to affect the life forms around it
Whether you or I believe that God starts this life and guides it, or science, spirituality, metaphysics, nothing even - whatever feels right to you and expresses this in the most meaningful manner, is what is right for you.  But the thing is, there are common themes and I believe, we are neither above, nor below these patterns.

Whether a community, a body system in itself, an environment, a family, the periodic table,  a solar system, religions, a film crew, a recipe for cake, a garden  - all of these have independent systems within it that create a whole.  That is just life.  They all have a balance of its parts that make them survive.

Take our physical self:  Each organ and the system it belongs to has a collection of tasks, amongst the whole system.  The digestive system supplies the body with energy and discards what it does not utilize.  The skeletal and muscular system is our physical framework geared to move us.  The immune system adaptst us to our environment and defend us.  The reproductive system continues us on.  Etc. Etc. Etc.  Each system has its place within the whole, just a bunch of cells which in the beginning began to realize their purpose and complete it.  And there you have a human body.  When the organs in that system begin to be compromised, the others around it must help it along,  compensate.  It redirects energy, sometimes putting things in overdrive to either recover, or just survive.  They whole system may be compromised in efficiency, even causing discomfort or more to the entire being. 

A family system - dysfunctional or not, are still a system.  When one member is down, the others rally to recover the member, to show their love, to say the tough things, or even walk away.  We affect one another.  We walk out in to the world in adulthood, imprinted with one, two or more decades of being a certain system within the whole.  Even when you walk away or move on, we are still, to an extent a part of that whole in the patterns we carry forward - even if it is to NOT carry the pattern forward (ah evolution).   And when we go out in to the world, ourselves as a part of that family system, are part of a community now, a society etc.  We have talents, we have patterns that we contribute to our environment good or not so good. 

Are we as humans, a positive system within the world as a whole?  Do I, as an individual, live who i am and offer my part to maintain balance within my family or social system?  Am I maintaining the balance my body, my physical self requires for wellness?  If I am not, at what cost and for what am I paying for? 

It seems way too simple to live these patterns what with all that us human beings are, but perhaps like all other systems, it is part of our survival to do so.